Monday, December 26, 2016


Dear girl who's waiting to hear back from him,

If he wanted to talk to you, he would have by now. If he can post things on Snapchat and Instagram, he also could have texted you in between that, but he didn't, because he's not planning to. Even after he comes back home from going out with his friends, all you're gonna see is him liking or commenting on another girl's status while your text remains unanswered, but yet, you're still waiting. Why? Why wait for a guy who isn't coming? Why wait for a guy who told you "Fine, just go" when you told him you were leaving and he didn't ask for you to stay? Why wait for a guy who doesn't know what he wants, but all of a sudden acts like he cares when he sees you talking to another guy or when you put a silent treatment on him? Why wait for a guy who emotionally shuts you out completely every time you try to get your feelings across to him? Why wait for a guy who would rather entertain all of these irrelevant girls than to pay attention to the one girl who should matter? Why wait for a guy who didn't end up wanting you, and yet, you're the one who feels like you lost him? Why are you doing this to yourself? 
He's out there living his life while you've been in bed waiting to hear from him, but instead, you're watching him be happy while you're miserable? If he can't see that you're the girl he should be putting his efforts into, then that's his loss and that's your gain because you don't need a guy like him. A guy like him isn't worth the wait. So stop waiting, because you've been waiting for nothing and you've wasted enough time on him. Stop letting him break your heart and more importantly, stop breaking your own heart.

cdt : Teddy Nguyen
♥ Love, Autumn Zira ♥

Saturday, December 24, 2016


Let me take a guess. There's this guy in your life right now, but he isn't your boyfriend and you're not his girlfriend, yet it feels like you two are basically a couple at the same time because you guys practically act like a couple. You guys call each other 'babe' or 'baby', you guys go out on dates and even argue like a couple, right? You probably have your belonging at his place. Even though you're not his girl, you're only loyal to him. You know you only want him. That's the only guy you care about. 

You're not confused about what you feel about him, but you're confused about what he feels about you because as perfect as it feels with him, you're wondering why you guys aren't official yet. Why hasn't he asked you to officially be his girlfriend?  What's holding him back? How come he isn't ready yet? How much more time does he need to figure it out? Is there another girl he's talking to? Or maybe there's multiple girls you don't know about. And when you guys fight, it's because there are other girls involved and he always uses the "We're not even together so I don't know why you're mad" excuse or maybe he used the "She's just a friend" line without realizing that you and him are also just "friends" and look how you two are. This has been going on for months, and right now, you're starting to get sick of it. You're starting to feel like you're wasting your time. You're starting to feel like it isn't worth it anymore.

It shouldn't take months for a guy to figure out if he wants to be with you because when a guy wants you, he will make you his. He wants to have you and be single at the same time, but he doesn't understand it can't work that way. At least, not with you. At this point, you're considering to end things, but a part of you wants to wait just a bit longer if he'll finally come around because the truth is you're in love with someone who isn't yours.

But, how long can you wait?

credit : Teddy Nguyen 
♥ Love, Autumn Zira ♥

Tuesday, December 20, 2016

20 Things I Will Never Do

Figuring these things out were pretty hard 
Set people on fire
Touching a spider/cockroaches
Spit in public
Poke people with a needle
Sleep with eyes open
Being a third wheel in people’s relationship
Sing at the graveyard
Conducting a choir (I can't even sing well)
Wear lingerie in public
Eat weird/exotic foods ( Cow's brain? LOL ew )
Not having a sleep for a day
Offer my help to look after children (children : irritating little monster but I DON’T HATE EM)
Go into the water without safety jacket (because I can’t swim damn it)
Solve any high-level Maths problems, 
Say ‘No’ when someone offers me foods
Riding a bicycle to cross a river
Going out for a jog without my playlist
Give people false hopes
Stop admiring at Dean’s voice 

Go check him out :  Dean

Feel free to ask me anything loveliessss

♥ Love, Autumn Zira ♥

Wednesday, December 14, 2016

What is My Favourite Way(s) to Spend a Lazy Day?

Lazy day usually drops on weekend (at least for me). It’s a day spent in shorts, tee and no cups. Hair is left undone. A lazy day means nothing gets done. A do nothing day. I like to wake up at noon so I don’t have to greet anyone ‘Good morning!’ I just gotta be so lazy to do anything productive. You can find me curled up on the bed with earphones listening to my favourite jam on my playlist, or snoozing. I may be laying on the floor because the tiles are cold, and I like that. I don’t even bat an eye on my assignments because, yeah, I’m being lazy for the whole day.

♥ Love, Autumn Zira ♥

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