Thursday, July 31, 2014

I've Learned.

Mr. R

I don’t thank you for what you did, but I am glad that it happened. I was naive, trusting, and oh so in love, and you took advantage of that. Another heartbreak, I was never going to be ready for it, I am sure nobody ever is, but I was completely unequipped for the brutality of it. I think anyone would be.

But from our relationship, i've learned. A LOT okay ;

I have learned of my emotional limits, I have learned of my personal weaknesses, and I have learned of my emotional fragility. But I have also beaten them. Because I reached rock bottom, and have come back from that I now know that I have huge personal strength and I have learned that the only person I need to conquer my problems, is me.

I have learned how easy it is to lose yourself in favor of someone(you) or something(depression) else. But I have learned how to get yourself back and how to stay true to that person. I will not lose or change my core personality in that way again, because I have learned how damaging that is.

I have learned that trust is amazing, but it should not be given easily, or worse, faked. I have learned that the only person you can truly trust is yourself, but that there are other people that can come very close, and these people are so special and the ones to hold on to.

I have learned the value of forgiveness, not forgiveness because of love or desperation, a fear of letting go, or loneliness, but true forgiveness. Finding contentment with things and people that have hurt you and finding a silver lining is something I have discovered to be priceless.

I have learned that I am so blessed. I am strong, I am loved, I am beautiful in various ways, and most importantly, I now know how to be the only person I need to make myself happy.

So I don’t thank you for the pain you caused, but I thank you for the journey that it set me on. It has been the most challenging obstacle in my short, sweet, life, but it has been a journey that has bettered me astronomically and a journey that could not have been achieved without that pain. And it is a journey that is now complete and I never need to go on again.

I never need to go again.

I totally let you go. Time to move on. Always take care.



Hahaha! This one, mmmm, nak tau? sila baca When My Fingers Strum

♥ Love, Autumn Zira ♥

Dreams To Reality

When i woke up this morning, i felt like everything happened yesterday was just a dream. Mimpi yg sangat bahagiaaaaaa. Kalau boleh saya harap tu semua mimpi la. Hahaha! but when i checked my phone, okay, semua tu bukan mimpi. It really happened and betambah lebar senyuman ni, kalau boleh mau sampai telinga *blush*

Hari ini Khamis, tak lama lagi roomates pulang. Nak tidy up bilik, nanti pengsan diorang nampak bilik macam kena badai saja. Kuliah pun nak start sudah. Mau rush up buat assg ni! Sejak kebelakangan ni asyik melayang-layang saja fikiran ni. Malam pun susah mau tidur sebab asyik tidur petang. Tak mau dah tidur petang! Sorry to say semalam sy tidur jam 3am. Hahahah! bukan kehendak ku :(

Korang masih beraya sakan? Bagus korang hantar kuih raya kat sy. Sy belum merasa sebijiiii pun kuih raya tau. *sobs*

Okay la mau continue dgn assg ni. Add mathe! sedih betul subjek ni. -.- Tapi kepala sgt pening skrg okay. sigh

p/s : Hi stalker. How are you? *ehem* ♥

♥ Love, Autumn Zira ♥

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Awaken From The Dream

So you asked me what did i dream about last night. Are you sure you want to know it?

I only remembered the last part of the dream, ya' know.
I felt someone laid his hand on my shoulder. 
And when i turned around, 
It was you. 
Our eyes met and,
Your tender lips smiled , so dearly.

I opened my eyes, 
Realized i was awaken to that, very heart-warming scene. 
That's the only thing I remembered. Not much, but it was something that I hope that the dream actually last longer. 

I didn't want to tell you this, i just don't want you to feel bothered bout it. It's best if i just keep this to myself.

♥ Love, Autumn Zira ♥

Sunday, July 6, 2014


haii you all! lama tak update story , sorry :( 

Sy skrg belajar kat KSKB SAS Ulu Kinta ni. Diploma Farmasi. takpe lah belajar 3 tahun diploma lagi hahaha janji kalau cemerlang exam komfom dapat keja!

Seriously KSKB SAS sgt lawa luas. keluasannya agak2 45 hektar. Student sem 1 yg masuk bulan julai ni ada 373 org. 80 daripadanya ialah pelatih farmasi. 

K la sebenarnya sy penat sgt ni. malas nak update panjang2 hahahah next time je la k . 


♥ Love, Autumn Zira ♥

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