Wednesday, December 31, 2014


Hi! Latest update? Okay skrg sy dah kembali dari bercuti... dan kini terperap dalam bilik asrama kolej. *kui-kui-kui* Tup tup tengah takde bende nak buat, baik update entry kan? ( HELO, assignment tak siap lagi! )

Okay berbalik kepada tajuk post kali ni! 2015. Hah ni mesti pasal azam baru , resolutions blah blah blahhhh. Op coz. Sy dah tak main lahhh azam tahun baru ni. Azam je lebihhh tapi seminggu pas tahun baru, ntah ke mana hilang azam tu. Haha! TAPI, tahun 2015 rasanya ada beberapa benda sy nak capai. Hmmm. Ye laaa, takkan nak stay bodoh je setiap tahun kan? Jealous juga tgk ada kawan2 yang dah capai azam diorang tu. Pay your attention, I'm goin to let y'all see me  2015 resolution list! *drum
just HTC ONE M8 please!

These 6 things. I MUST GET EM DONE BY 2015. 


♥ Love, Autumn Zira ♥

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Forever Alone Alert!

A home doesn't feel like home. Am I too harsh for saying this? But that's the fact. I expect everyone to be here when I'm home at Sabah. But no. I 've been feeling so lonely and it's killing me, emotionally. I need someone to talk and laugh with. Yes I've planned to go for a walk or eye-shopping, but it doesn't feel right to do em alone.

So last night I went to a Christmas party at my neighbor's. ( Well they invited me, it is not nice to reject an invitation ) So Dad brought me there. The place was crowded and full of strangers, I know NOBODY! And again I felt alone. Those people looked at me like I'm an alien. No one talks to me and all I did was pretending to laugh at my phone when all I see was my phone's wallpaper.. Did that just to cover things up so people won't look down on me. Haha quite sad right? I know..

So do you see my problem here? I can't stand being alone with no one around or being alone in a crowd. It gives me some kind of mental-illness where I would burst into tears for feeling so aloneeeee.


p/s : no matter how angry or upset i am, i still love you people! bai <3

♥ Love, Autumn Zira ♥

Tuesday, December 9, 2014


Cingggggg I'm here, back at my home, tanah tumpahnya darahku, SABAH!

The best part of coming home is , well it's your home. But when it comes to the shitty part of it is when everyone sees you and tell you this :" YOU'RE GETTING FATTER!"

FAT. puhhh!

I couldn't deny that, yeap. Even my weight reaches *censored* kilograms People call me fat all the time. I have a bigger butt than most girls, and my thighs and legs are a lot bigger too. Friends keep telling me its okay to gain a lil bit kg, you still look pretty. it's okay that you look chubby, you still you. Sigh I think they will never understand my issue. I used to be thin so this kind of changes of course affect me both physical and emotionally. Even my boyfriend telling me about the same thing... *sigh*

I hope that I can really cut down these layers of fats before new semester starts next year. I'm targeting for 50kg, AT LEAST. The more 'fat' word that hits my eardrum, the more hurt I get. Damn I might stop eating because of it. 

Not everyone is a size 0. I'm perfectly fine and healthy.

♥ Love, Autumn Zira ♥

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